Midnight Rumination
Posted by Aragoen Celtdra on 4th February 2009
I’ve just spent the last hour poring over some of the latest threads in the techexams.net forum. and networking-forum.com. I’ve been a member of these forums for just about a year now. Anyway, I’m supposed to be studying but somewhere along the way between googling about IPv6 interface ID and CCIE, I ended up reading some success stories in the forums.
I couldn’t help but feel like I’m so far away from my goal and it almost seems so easy to just give up. Reading about some of the stories of the latest CCIE candidates who have passed their exams, both in the blog world and the forums, is ironically, both inspiring and exhausting. Inspiring in a way that it motivates me to just want to hit the books even harder and exhausting in a way that I know there is so much work to be done and I’m barely scratching the surface. But at this moment in time, right now, it feels like it’s so tiring to just think about this whole quest (might have something to do with the fact that I had another long day at work today, my son is sick and being a little un-cooperative this evening, and it’s almost 1am).
It’s funny because just the past few days, as I was reading/posting about some of the few CCIE examinees that just passed, I was pretty motivated and uplifted. Reading about their struggles and accomplishments re-invigorated my desire. And my desire was turning into pure motivation. I guess somehow my ever-expanding tendency for instant gratification (from instant answers from google and up-to-the-minute updates on everything in my newsfeeds ) is skewing the reality that attaining something of value can’t be had that easily; that because I want something so bad and can’t have it as quickly as I would like is screwing with the reality that I’m know – the reality of instant answers and instant updates.
Or maybe I just need to go to sleep…
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